Feeling awful today

I am feeling really sick today. Dizzy, nauseated and absolutely no energy. Threw up in the morning, only there was nothing in the tummy to come out and thats even worse.

Sitting here at work staring at my laptop. Wanna just lie down. Think I am ging to do just that.

Have a good weekend.

Today is a good day......relatively

Today is relatively a good day. Although the morning was a little difficult coz Alysha refused to brush her teeth or have a shower and then I had to walk and walk and walk, what seemed like forever to the main road to catch a cab to town.

Have not had the feeling of really throwing up since morning. Maybe I have been eating the right things. Shall not say anymore about it for fear that I will throw up right after I say such things.

Am feeling ugly though. Have no make up on ....not even powder...am wearing one of Sri's hand me down baju kurungs (not that the baju kurung is ugly). And of all days, today this guy, this new consultant from Singapore is here and had a discussion with us about something where I had to do a lot of talking, which means that he had to look at me a lot....when I am actually looking ugly.

I now pregnant women dont really care about such things but this guy is quite good looking, attaractive. So how? Too badlah, all done and over with .....probably thinking this company got no standards hiring consultants who dont even know how to look presentable. Of course I wanted to scream like "oi, i am pregnantlah" but instead very professionallly smiled and ended the discussion and am at my table writing about it now.

Lets see what else, screamed at my good friend, my ex actually for not showing any compassion and going on and on about how I dont call him anymore. I am like, heloooo didnt I say I am pregnant and feeling sick all the time. I expect him to call and ask how am I feeling instead of expecting me to call when even breathing seems so difficult sometimes. Anyway told him "all men are b****" and left it at that. Was really pissed off. No offence to other men who are actually quite compasionate and show empathy in such crcumstances

and tomorrow is friday....yay ...but i can sense the weekend to be more and more tiring than weekdays.....have to think of some ways to keep my little one entertained

I am back with feeling of "loyaness"

I know I have been away for a long time. Just couldnt help it. Yes, have to confirm here that I AM PREGNANT and that is exactly the reason I have been away. The "loyaness" feeling is unbearable. Didnt know such a word existed actually until hubby mentioned it the other day. Was so impressed with his knowledge of the national language. Really cant remember feeling this way during my first pregnancy but of course that would not be surprising considering the way my brain works or rather doesn't work to retain things.

I feel like throwing up all the time, before I eat, after I eat, while eating, as soon as I am awake and just before bed. Only thing is I dont throw up, its just the feeling thats there all the time. Take note of remedy for nausea in pregnancy books :

Eat crakers - does not work, does not work, DOES NOT WORK
Eat small meals - I can only take 5-6 spoon fulls anyway before I feel like throwing up on the meal in front of me.
Dont drink water while eating - how the hell then do I get the food to get down and not stay at my throat.
Dont wear clothings that are tight at the waist - this is equivalent to saying dont wear clothes. coz I havent shopped for bigger pants yet and cant possibly wear my maternity clothes aready, can I?

So in between all the loya ness and feeling bloated and ugly, I will try and write as much as I can.

Till then.