Alysha's first day at pre school & 3rd wedding anniversary

Alysha’s first day of pre school falls on the same day as my 3rd wedding anniversary. Amazing!It was a fun yet stressful day. Today was Alysha’s first day at Pre School. Well, it was a trial as I sat in for all the 3 hours till 12. The morning itself was exciting. I was up early as if it was my first day. Got dress and woke Alysha up. Got her all distracted to get her straight to the bath as I didn’t want to be late. In 15 min we were all ready. Left right after her breakfast and still were 15 minutes late. Wonder how am I going to do this everyday ad be there on time. But after all this is not really school is it so I can be 15 min late or so once a while.

I had packed her Pooh bag last night, 2 diapers, a change of clothes, a napkin and her water bottle. Yes, of course I got her Pooh bag. I am super mom, am I not. Went to Mid Valley at 8pm and found her Pooh bag. My dearest daughter was more interested in playing with all other toys and was not at all interested in getting the bag but I got it anyway. Got home and Madame says “Where is my Barney bag?” Barney? Did I hear her right? “What Barney? You mean Pooh” I say. “No I want Barney” replies Her Majesty. Serves me right for submitting to the request of a 2 year old. What would she know. Well, that’s water under the bridge as its going to be Pooh bag. Just too bad for her.

Now, where were we? Oh yes, pre school. As we got in, the children of her age were already coloring. So we colored an ant red, 3 times, It was so much fun. I tried very had to help her make friends and get involved in all the activities. Introducing her to the kids and saying hello on her behalf as she was just very shy and clinging on to me at all times. I think it worked out fine as one of the first things she mentioned to her grandma when she got home was that she had a friend called Aishah.

After painting it was snack time, gym time, the library and role play where Alysha went marketing and cooked for me. It was the most sumptuous meal I have had so far. Then some songs and rhymes before it was time to go home. The ride back was not too good as she was very hungry and sleepy and throwing a tantrum. Thank God Suben was there to drive us back. Coincidentally he was back after he funeral at his aunts place in bangsar. I on the other hand was very late for work. Rushed home, tried to give her lunch. She just took the whole plate and overturned it in the kitchen. I got so upset, more because now I am going to even more late and all that crying an d whinning was just getting to me. I smacked her fingers so hard I am sure she hurt and she cried ( or rather we cried for a while) until she was tired. Finally had lunch and slept in my arms in the car. I rushed to work after leaving her at my mom’s.

All I was thinking of during my meeting was how the day went and that I really didn’t need to smack her. God! Please let me have more patience with my “Gudiya” (that’s doll by the way)

Yes I didn’t forget that it is my anniversary today. Wished my husband early in the morning. Surprisingly there was no card for me this time. There has always been for the past 3 years. Wonder what that means? I know he loves me just as much but …..Thought we’d go out for dinner, maybe leave Alysha at my mom’s but that too didn’t work out co’z he had an aunts death prayer to attend. Actually he is still not back. Don’t get me wrong. I have no problems with that. I know some things in life are beyond your control and I too didn’t realize that sub consciously I had some expectations and maybe I am a little disappointed. Not with him but the situation. I know we’ll probably have dinner maybe tomorrow or Sunday to make up for today. Well, I never got him anything either. But that is just not me. I have never got him anything on our anniversary before. Maybe I should. Are we taking each other for granted already? So soon? After 3 years? Well, technically its been 10 coz I have known him for a while now.

I have a nagging feeling about her pre school that I will speak about later. Taking her to the school again tomorrow. Let’s see how it goes.

Miss him a lot. Haven’t spoken to him for a while. We both have been busy.

The Pooh School Bag

Back to the “Pooh” bag that Alysha wanted. I had a long lunch hour today and rushed to petaling street to searched for the bag. Can you imagine, consultant cum mom in a suit in between meetings, took a bus to petaling street in the heat and frantically looking for a Pooh bag. Well, my bad luck, no Pooh bag in sight anywhere. Ask every single shop practically, and walked up and down the street a zillion times thinking I must have missed a shop. Aaaarrrggghhhh! No Pooh bag in sight!!! Old stock aparently, The in thing is barbie (always in aparently), incredibles, spider man, barney, NOT POOH. But why not? Isn it one of the better characters and cuddlier than the rest of them.

I think she just has to settle for a barney or mickey. That too she is not going to have it by tomorrow coz I haven’t bought one yet. Have asked my cousin, Rehana to look for it in Md Valley and just get it if she finds it. Umm, lets see. I am so worried of tomorrow actually. Just dunno whats it going to be like. Will she want to even go in the school? I would stay for all 3 hours. Would she just cling to me and not play with the kids? Would she hide behind me?
What about Friday, when I am actually going to try and leave her behind all by herself. Oh God! Let it be ok. Let HER be ok. Let her enjoy school. Whats the worse thing that can happen. She wouldnt want to go and I would just defer it till when she is ready. Like maybe in 6 months, 1 year. Not to mention the money I will be saving. Enough to pay for a new car installment.

Wish me luck !

Oh! Before I forget, Its my 3rd wedding anniversary tomorrow and I havent got Suben anything yet. Not even a card. What am I going to do. I bet you he has bought a card for me. Maybe I can dash off to Memory Lane across in maju Junction and get a card, now. Yes! I shall do that now. The least I can do for my loving husband of 3 years

Will think of present later. Maybe some fun time in bed tonight should do it :) What say you??

Leaving my baby behind

It was not a nice feeling this morning of having to leave home before Alysha wakes up. I wish I could be there when she wakes, cuddle her in bed for a while, take her to the potty, have breakfast together and get her dress myself. But had a meeting at 9 and if I was late again (was late once last week) my boss would have a very nasty or sacarstic thing to say.

But I had loads o fun with her last night. Fixing puzzles, stringing beads and reading her books before bed. We laughed and laughed over a story where the elephant snores very loudly (that’s me) and wakes everyone up in the jungle. She loves that snore that comes out of me.

Then as she was just dozing off, her papa walks in to get his towels for a bath (really! Does he not know I am putting her to sleep and that she wakes up at the slightest sound). It turned out ok in the end though as she wanted to talk to her papa. I then took her out coz I figured she would sleep faster as she wont be wondering and asking me a zillion times, where is papa and who is outside and what’s the noise, etc. etc????

She wanted to play the minute we went out. A very stern “No” from me and with almost being close to tears she jumped into my arms and was asleep in 15 min. I fel very bad for raising my voice with the “No” but was so tired that just wanted her to go to bed so that I could sleep too.

I am worried that this might get worse if and when I have another child. I would be doubly tired and need to be doubly patient as well.

I am waiting for my meeting to start and all I am wondering about is whether my baby is up and missing me as much as I am missing her. What would she be thinking. Why is mama not here? I am after all the first thing she calls out for when she is awake. But on he other hand I think this instances makes her closer to Suben which makes me happy.

Count down to my 3rd wedding anniversary ...2 days

I know its only my 3rd wedding anniversary, so why the fuss, why the need for a countdown. Now, thats because I may, no, not may, I know I will not remember it on the morning on Mac 31. I just called a friend of mine to inform her that she had better remind me the night before, Mac 30 that my anniversary is the very next day.

I know its usually the husband who forgets, but Suben is very good at remembering such things and I am very very bad. And it would be really not done to forget after 3 years, right? After 8, 15 maybe, but 3? surely that may indicate to hubby that I dont care!

So, I need to be reminded, anybody, just remind me !

All I can do is pray

The 2nd earthquake since the Dec 23 Tsunami incident just hit us. US! Malaysians who we thought for a long time were in an earthquake free zone. Well, technically we still are but if the tremors were felt right here, in our homes claerly we are not safe.

In times like this all I can think of is how helpless I am as I cant really protect my loved one. All I can really do is pray! Pray for their safety at all times.

Preparing for Alysha's preschool

School? School? Now thats amazing. My baby is going to school. I know its only pre school. But still....This decision to send her to school has been a project for a long time. Abandoned for a while as I kept thinking that she is just too young. I still think that she is too young but abet she has shown all signs of being ready for it. Infact she looks forward to it and on certain days takes a back pack, fills them up with blocks and anounces that she is off to school.

I think she is just bored at home. I mean she plays a lot I am sure with my mom and maid but my mom's place is not spacious (Its an apartment) so not much space to run aout. Also, keeping a 27 month oldoccupied all the time is not an easy task.

The research that went into deciding which school to send her to......that is a differerent long story all together.

Anyways, went to Sogo today to look fro a bag. I thought she likes Barney and so picked a Barney bag and was ready to pay for it when I decided to just call home and check on her. To my surprise, my little one expressed a very strong preference for Pooh!

Searched frantically for a Pooh bag but no where to be found. I actually have to make a visit to Mid Valley soon (Before Thursday, coz thats when I am going in for a trial at her school) to look for a Pooh bag.

I just cant believe that I am giving in to this demand but if its something that i can do (without much hassle) why not eh? After all my daughter does not start school everyday!!

Of course, I also dread to think whether submitting to such a demand is the starting point to other greater future demands