I am devastated

Could I have imagined it? I was so sure I saw a faint 2nd line. So sure. Just did the test again and results were negative.

What does this mean? You shouldnt trust RM10 test kits. The one just now was RM20. Maybe its too soon to tell, but what was the bloody faint line then.

All things in life don't turn out as we plan them. That hope that I was pregnant, leaves me with a sense of mourning.

But, its ok, really, because if God wanted me get pregnant right now, I would be pregnant. There is always a reason which is unknown to us humans. He knows best. But I have a deep feeling of loss. I cant stop grieving.